i am not that brave

احساس میکنم من انقدر شجاع نیستم که بیام جلو و عشقم رو بیان کنم. شاید چون ترسو هستم؛ ترس از از دست دادن یک حالت فریز شده! هیچی جور نیست، این وسواس ... و روش من؟! ادامه دادن به شرایط برزخیه!

there was a moment when I thought that I didn't even want to stay alive. actually, There were lots of moments where I was sure. I fall deeper and deeper into myself without even her knowing and keep all of my pain and anxiety inside, and never tell anyone anything. sometimes I think there's no place in the world that would make me feel secure. you have my word, I know it better than you that I Sometimes exaggerate in my descriptions so if you want to get worried, don't.